bismillah

my little darling is sick. she is having heat rashes all over the body. my sister sent me an sms telling me about this. i am very worried and a little bit upset that I cant be there for my little baby, poor hajar. Ibu is really sorry for this. Last night, Hajar was a little bit uncomfortable and cried a few times. Ibu had to calmed her down and endoi her before Hajar went back to sleep again.

Hajar was also sick during the weekend. She had a slight flu and fever. Alhamdulillah she's got better yesterday. We went to Putrajaya to spend the evening. Hajar was not in the mood. She wasnt smiling at all. Not like herself who was usually very cheerful and loves to babble. Poor Hajar. She cried on top of her voice while we were in the mall. Ibu and abah had to rush out of the store and calmed Hajar down.

Hajar was finally soothed and went sleep after abah and ibu recited Quran for her. She was very lovely but looked a little bit tired. Ibu hope Hajar will be okay soon and become happy and cheerful again.

bismillah

Kadangkala sukar untuk aku nafikan
Kerisauan dan gelisah ini
Pada si comel kesayangan yang sering ditinggalkan
Jauh dari pandangan, tak kelihatan bayangan

Kerinduan sedetik bagai bertahun
Mendera hati yang sarat dengan kecintaan
Pada si comel penghias taman kasih
simbol cinta satu cerita

Kehidupan ini penuh dengan pilihan menyesakkan
Antara cita dan cinta
Antara suka dan airmata
Antara harap dan usaha

Ku harap agar si comel mengerti
Tabah dan terdidik dengan pilihan ini

Ibu menyayangimu
Teramat merinduimu

bismillah

hajar has got lots and lots of pictures! she was very cute in the pictures. she appears even more adorable and sweet in front of the lense..ehehehe. i love my little darling so much.

she often wake up in the middle of the night lately. she'll cry and ask ibu to endui her. ehehe...have to be patient in caring and loving my little girl. for my little darling, sweet hajar, i dont mind. i am just hoping she'll grow up healthy and happy in taqwa.

bismillah

hi there, long time no see =)

hajar has just recovered from flu and cough..Alhamdulillah she was very strong and didnt get too 'cerewet.' Hajar tak demam altho her nose was runny and her throat was itchy.Alhamdulillah.I believe her first raya was wonderful with travelling from Bangi to Bidor and Penang. She got quite a few ringgit of duit raya. Thank you all. Ibu will open a bank account for Hajar soon InshaAllah.

Believe it or not, Alhamdulillah, we didnt get caught in any bad traffic jam. Just a few slow moving moments here and there, but not too bad like hours of waiting and crawling for kilometres long. what more interesting was we got the chance to see a trailer with four anak gajah! i believe they were heading to thailand since the truck has thai's words on it. the truck was moving slowly and we watched the baby elephants puas-puas.

on last thursday, hajar got two more vaccine doses each on her left and right thigh. This time, alhamdulillah she just cried a little and got just fine afterwards. The injection left red marks on her thighs and one of them bleed a little. she didnt fall sick also. ibu was very thankful to Allah and was very happy for Hajar.

hajar didnt gain weight during the last month..maybe due to ibu was fasting? and the breastmilk was less and hajar didnt get to drink enough milk.poor hajar..ibu hope hajar was learning about fasting too and feel the difference in the month of Ramadhan, inshaAllah.

hajar is now 5 months and 1 week. she can sit on her own now! (altho she can't sit too long and will fall forward or sideways with her face down..ehehe..she looks so cute)

i am very grateful that i am blessed with Hajar and a wonderful marriage. I pray that Allah will shower us with the blessing of forgiveness, righteousness, happiness, health and piety. what more can I ask for?

bismillah

few days ago, or exactly on august 8th, my little daughter has successfully 'meniarap' (what's the term in English? i dont know la ..ehehehe)

she's growing so fast and it feels just like yesterday I held her in my arms for the first time.

now, during the blessed month of Ramadhan, Hajar usually wake up as early as fajr and started bubbling all the way till 9am or 10 am or whenever she finally felt tired. it's so cute, but sometimes ibu was still soo sleepy. it's hard to give her the attention while ibu was dozing off. hajar would try hard to get everyboy's attention. she would be very happy and smile cheerfully when ibu or auntie mimi entertained her. yippie!

poor little hajar, she's got two or three mosquito bites on her cheek and forehead. the red spots are so obvious on her fair skin.

rite now, she's 'talking' on the phone with auntie santi and the loved ones at penang.

Alhamdulillah, life is great with all my loved ones by my side.

sweetheart, ibu love you

bismillah


when hajar's asleep, ibu'll sit in front of the computer writing some more notes in this diary =)

Alhamdulillah, this morning we went for hajar's monthly check up at the clinic. hajar woke up very early in the morning and ibu got her ready. she was very good today and behaved very nicely..alhamdulillah

so, hajar's now 7.5kg. she didnt gain much weight since the last month although for me she grows bigger-and her cheeks grow even more chubby everyday. as long as hajar is healthy, ibu'll be happy..inshaAllah.

this afternoon auntie mimi fed hajar with her baby food. just trying to feed hajar with additional food other than ibu's milk. hajar ate just few scoops and then refused to take some more. qaleelan qaleelan soro jabbalan =)

hajar's now sleeping soundly... while ibu have to wait for abah to come home.

bismillah


it's a 'jerebu' day!..
at last the jerebu reaches penisular mesia after a stop at borneo
.it's a winday day too n i guess the wind carries the jerebu along with it..
alhamdulillah a'la kulli hal, it's still another day in ramadhan, n we muslims are fasting and doing ibadah..anywhere,anytime

hajar's not fasting though =)..she's still small lah! and it's not obligatory on her.
inshaAllah she'll learn about fasting n others when the time comes.
However, i hope she's listening to the quran recitation whenever somebody recites it to her.although she wont listen attentively and will start 'talking' ... i hope she'll benefit from it too.
who knows she'll be able to become a hafizah one day...

I pray to Allah thatHajar will become an excellent hafizah, Allahumma ameen

Bismillah

Fasting! yeay!
Ramadhan is more joyful this year as a wife and a mother
with hajar by my side (big smile=))




i was a lil bit worried 'bout hajar since she's still fully breast fed, but then i realize that i have to put the matter in the hands of Allah for He is the One Who provides, Alhamdulillah.

;)
life isnt as simple as it is in a blog

bismillah

hajar's a 'big' girl now. she weighs 7.2kg at the age of three mohts!
we've just got back from tok mak and tok pak's house. had a very good time there. hajar was soo happy and enjoyed her stay there. she's got pretty close to tok pak, whom i am pretty sure she misses so much already!

hajar has got another dose of injection. Alhamdulillah, she's okay and didnt fall sick after the injection. she's strong and healthy, biiznillah.i am proud of her...may Allah protect her now and forever

people said,'besarnya hajar!'
hehehe..i agree with them. she is so chubby, so adorable, and so cute!
she loves bubbling and smiling.

she knows how to grab her towel or her blanket already. she loves to bring them to her mouth and suckle the clothes.

she's no longer 'cengeng'. she'll only cry when she's hungry or uncomfortable.
i love my easy-baby.muuaaaahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!

hajar,
terlalu tenggelam dalam cinta padamu
sayang, rindu semua jadi satu
memandang wajah comelmu tidak membuatkan kami jemu
mimik mukamu, senyum tangismu
semua indah menghiasi ruang hidup kami

hajar,
bagai mentari menyinari hari-hari yang kami lalui
terang benderang dan ceria
seindah sepasang matamu yang berkaca
cantik dan ikhlas pada wajahmu yang suci dari dosa

hajar,
ibu dan abah bangga denganmu
cinta sayang padamu
membesarlah jadi puteri kami
yang solehah, mukminah
mencintai dan dicintai Allah
mencontohi Rasulullah
taat dan hormat pada yang lebih berusia

sayang yang teramat
dari kami ...

bismillah

heart grows fonder when we are apart
it feels like just yesterday
when we first met each other

now,
hajar is a sign of our love
that will always bloom
now and forever

my little baby Hajar

weighs 6 kg by the age of 2 months and 1 week

bismillah

mashaAllah ...
she has become more adorable day by day. it feels like i never want to let her off my arms, always looking into her face, her beautiful eyes.

this morning she was crying to the top of her voice in the clinic. poor little baby, she was sleepy, but she couldnt sleep without her 'buaian.' i had to walk around trying my best to sooth her, to comfort her, to ensure her that she's safe with 'ibu' =) . she got her 2nd dose of bcg today. it was supposed to be given last week, but i've mistakenly thought that the date was 28th when it was 26th. I was happy that i've mistakenly read the date since hajar wont get sick during the weekend. That weekend, we went back to 'kampung' for an event especially for hajar, and i was lucky because hajar was not sick because the 'delayed' injection.

now, she's sleeping. guess she's tired from crying too hard after the painful injection on her right thigh. the nurse said hajar'll be sick as a consequence from the injection. poor hajar. i hope she'll be okay and strong to go through the next few 'fever' days.

hajar 'talked' on the phone with tokpak and has 'reported' her 'unlucky' day. hajar, ibu hope you'll be just fine.

when u cry ... i know u r growing up
when u cry ... i know u r telling me something
when u cry ... i know u r feeling uncomfortable
when u cry ... i know i'll be ur side
loving u unconditionally
i love u so much, my daughter

bismillah

I just want to say ..
ibu loves you,
my little baby =)

ibda' bil bismilah

at the age of 24, i've received a priceless gift, so precious that one can never buy. it's a gift dreamt by many, but not all of them are blessed with it. it's the motherhood.

2.56a.m may 28, 2006, i've given birth to a sweet baby girl. she looked a lot like her father, but now she looked much different. she has soft, fair skin and the special 'chinese eyes.' she's so adorable that looking into her eyes makes me feel the world has turned even more wonderful(although in reality, it doesn't). happiness surrounded my life, and i am very thankful to God for this gift.

motherhood is a very wonderful experience. i dont deny it requires a lot of time and energy. =) I cant sleep whenever i like anymore. most of my times were spent with my baby, either nursing her or calming her down.

i love my little princess and i'll always will...