Just have to share this bcoz it is too beautifully written you dont wanna miss it

http://muslimmatters.org/2013/10/16/look-whos-coming-isnt-think/

Look Who’s Coming Out, But It Isn’t What You Think

The hardest part about coming out has got to be coming up with a good opening line.  I haven't got one though. So I'll give it to you straight.

I'm not gay, but I could be dying.

As fas I know, not imminently though.  I've known for years now that certain things in my body aren't working properly – like my heart and a part of my brain called the autonomic nervous system, and because we all need our hearts and autonomic nervous systems to keep things running smoothly, I do have a potentially life-threatening condition.  Well, technically, I have two – Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome, and Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome.

You look unsettled.  Don't worry, a lot of people have that reaction.  You should see them when they try to shake my hand and find that it's already shaking.  They search my face for nervousness, fear, or an explanation of why meeting them would horrify me so badly.  I tell them I have some medical conditions that can make my hands tremble.  They look blank.  Then I tell them how awesome it is – all my drinks are shakes and all of my toothbrushes are extra sonic.  They laugh uncertainly.

Laughter is important

When my son was six or seven months old we were in an accident that totalled the car and damaged my right knee.  My husband called me in the ER and when I picked up the phone he said, “Look, if you want me to spend more time with you, there are better ways of letting me know.”  We laughed.  Then he came and pushed my wheelchair around the ER in laps until the baby fell asleep and we went home and lived happily ever after.

Somewhere in the fairy tale our baby prince was diagnosed with autism, but that's another story.  While I would be hanging out the baby prince's baby laundry, my arms would get very tired.  Then we had a baby princess and if I stood up too quickly I would pass out.  A second princess was born and by then my muscles cramped and twitched and hurt for days at a time.  At present, I own the world's heaviest smart phone, use both arms to carry a two-ton, 13-inch laptop, and have noted that carpenters don't make sofas like they used to.  They're hard to get out of, and on top of that – they make this huge WHOOSH and creak when I fall – errr – daintily settle into them.

But we've settled.  I have a full-time housekeeper and the driver takes the kids to and from school.  Not because I'm the Queen, but because the last time I mopped the kitchen my legs hurt for three days.  Chronic illness does have its perks – I can't remember the last time I cleaned a bathroom.  Oh, and I have country-wide parking privileges.  Technically it's called disabled parking, but I prefer to call it VIP.

I get special treatment

Sounds fair enough.

When I walk – because I  can – slowly out of my car, people specially glare at me, wondering why I'm parking in a disabled spot when I'm so obviously not in a wheelchair.  My husband says they're just jealous, but once upon a time I too glared at people who parked in disabled spots and then skipped out of their luxury sports cars to the mall.  If you gave me a little red convertible, I'd probably skip too, but just once, and then I would limp for a few days before sulkily admitting that I probably shouldn't skip anymore.

I don't skip.

Also I don't do stairs.

Or whistle.

The muscles of my mouth won't.  It's a nerve thing, I think.  I would never have known, since I'm not the whistling type, but I felt oddly insulted when my neurologist asked me if I could whistle.  “Of course I can!” I huffed, and pursed my lips together to produce an indignant ffffffffffft.

He waited.  I tried again. Then he made some notes and left me to mourn.

For a while I really did mourn.  And by a while, I mean a good year or so.  But the Kübler-Ross stages of grief: denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance, are overrated, so I made up my own.  Instead of denial, I started with terror for my children's future, followed by appreciating every minute details of their hands, faces, fingers, and words.  Then, I remembered what an idiot I've been for an overwhelming majority of my sentient life, and I began to beg for forgiveness before Allāh called me for account.

There was never room for denial, as my creeping disability was constantly present, and finally getting a diagnosis was reassurance that I was not, indeed, crazy.  Because weakness, fatigue, and pain are invisible, and POTS is hard to diagnose, I was told many times that my symptoms were in my head.  Not that I was making them up – but that not being able to manage my stress was taking a toll on my body.  When my eye twitched for a week, I was told to relax and consider yoga.

It finally took a biopsy to confirm that my muscles were indeed atrophying.  Before that, it took X-rays, CT scans, lab tests, MRIs, and genetic testing to rule out nearly every other option before finally coming to POTS and Ehlers-Danlos.  It also took several modern forms of torture – clinically known as EMGs and EEGs.  In an EMG, they stab a needle an inch or two into your muscle and ask you to flex while they actually listen for muscle recruitment and response.  I would like you to consider how big a needle feels to have a microphone in it.

In an EEG they jab the prongs of a vicious, hospital-grade taser into your face, arms, and legs and then shock you with it.  There is also a good ole fashioned tape measure involved. The goal is to measure the speed at which your nerves conduct the shock along major pathways, and the tape measure is used to count how many inches you jump off the chair while they are doing so.

Just kidding.

They measure the length of your limbs in order to calculate the speed at which the shock traversed said distance.  So not only is it torture, it's also math.

(If an electrical signal leaves the shoulder station at 4:15 pm travelling 30 mph, and the distance to the wrist is 60 centimeters, how hard will you punch the neurologist when it gets there?)

Are you laughing yet? Good, keep laughing.  Because now I'm going to be serious.  I have a seven-year old son with autism, a five-year old with exciting dreams, and a two-year old whose entire world revolves around me.  And they're all really cute, māshā'Allāh.  In fact, they're gorgeous, insane, challenging, and sweet.  My five year old said to me the other day, “Momma, your hand is shaking!”

“Yes dear,” I said quietly, “It does sometimes.”

“I'll stop if for you!” she said.

And then she held my hand.

My heart hurts.  Emotionally, I mean.  Physically, too, sometimes, because I have tachycardia and chest pain, but being forced to withdraw from more and more of my children's lives is a bigger pain that I had not anticipated.  I can't climb.  I can't slide.  I can't carry beach toys through the sand.  I will never again take them to a water park, or have a picnic on top of a hill.  I may not live to see my youngest get to first grade.

For an entire year or more my prayers were fueled with the urgency of my possible impending death, but eventually, the terror subsided.  The shock value of OMG I COULD BE DYING?!  got replaced with OMG I'M STILL HERE!? and I started to accept my health problems as being Allāh's decision.   I changed my focus from dying with dignity to living with disability , but then I had a new and really serious problem:  my duas weren't good anymore.  I wasn't afraid anymore, and that made me… afraid.

So then I had some more learning to do.  I met with one Shaykh.  He told me that fear was only one door to Jannah.  Gratitude, contentment, and trust in Allāh's decisions were three more.  I may no longer be crying in fear, but I if I can call on Allāh with contentment, gratitude, and trust, then new doors will open to me, inshā'Allāh.

Then another Shaykh – he asked me to focus on my family and my legacy.  So if you benefit from this article in some way, make du‘ā’ for him too, because he asked me to write it.  This article is part of my legacy project to create things that will earn blessings even after my death. So please make du‘ā’ for me, regardless of whether I'm not dead yet when you read this. JazakAllahuKhayran.

And then the third Shaykh – he talked about trusting Allāh to look after my children after I died, since He was their Rabb after all.  I'm only a temporary caretaker.  Allāh's the one who's been really looking out for them this whole time.

I know I haven't been a good person, but I know that Allāh  is Most Merciful, Most Forgiving, and has promised forgiveness for those who sincerely seek it.  If I'm going to meet Allāh soon, and I am a believer, and I have accepted His plans for my self, my children, and my family – I have nothing left but excitement.  Fear, yes – that I still have things to answer for, but definitely excitement.

Now, when I pray my heart is fluttery and nervous with excitement and my vision blurred with tears. I raise my hands and I whisper, “Oh Allāh, please let me be among those who get to see your Blessed Face.”

There's a naked greediness for khayr that you can only savor when you're really, desperately, in need.  Also, there's an exhilaration when you realize that when you pray, one of only three things will happen:

1. Allāh gives you what you ask for.
2. Allāh diverts or reduces a calamity that would otherwise have befallen you.
3. Allāh keeps your duas and gives them back to you on the Day of Judgment as blessings in your scale of deeds, when you need them most. This, as the hadith says, will be so utterly awesome and amazing that it will make you wish that none of your duas had ever been granted in this life.

I tell you, if I hadn't been sick I would never have fallen so head over heels in love withdu‘ā’.  It amazes me every time I think about it – when I make mention of Allāh's name, He makes mention of mine.

No matter how many times I remember that, it still humbles and awes me to think of the Lord who created the universes (plural) with nothing more than a word (Be) saying my name.  Were He to grant all of mankind everything they wished, their demands would not diminish His bounty any more than a needle dipped diminishes the sea – and He said my name? Me? A tiny, insignificant assortment of blood, bones, and ingratitude meandering through life and remembering Him only when I need Him, but the voice that created the cosmos spoke my name???

AllahuAkbar

I'm not afraid anymore.  I'm excited.  That doesn't mean I'm not still asking Allāh to forgive my past sins, or heal me, or protect and guide my children, or help me settle my debts before I die, it just means that making du‘ā’ is a whole lot more fun than it ever used to be.  Some people are high on life.  Pfft.  I'm high on death, it's awesome!

Unfortunately though, like every other non-chronically ill person whose body may or may not currently be dying, my faith ebbs and flows like tides on a beach.  When the tide is high, I swim out to the sweet water beyond the edge of the world like Reepicheep.  But when the tides are low, I struggle with my ankles in the sand and operational sea-foam up to my knees.

On a side note, there is a major difference between chronic illness on tv and chronic illness in real life.  If this were TV, I'd get a Hallmark made-for-TV special: the tragedy of the brave special needs mother fighting to convert her Christian mother and leave a legacy for her children before she bravely and stoically dies – but not before an instrumental montage of her fight for acceptance, happiness, and eventually peace, before bravely and stoically passing away.
Also, if I were sick on TV I'd probably be losing weight in the crescendo towards my glamorous, waif-like death; pale but strangely beautiful in a victorian-style dressing gown of some sort.  In real life, I don't own any dressing gowns, and I might not even die early.  I could just live a long, disabled life. In the TV version, I'm supposed to be dying as an inspiration to those who live.  In real life I might be around for a while.  And I might need you to brush my teeth for me.  Thanks.

In any case, if I'm going to be sick (and die maybe) and I'm going to learn a lesson from it, then you should probably learn it, too, because guess what?

We're both dying

You and me buddy, both of our bodies are deteriorating, but the difference is that I can feel mine giving in.  And you might feel sorry for me, but consciousness of my own mortality is a gift.  Even though I didn't ask to be sick, I cannot ignore how priceless a reminder it is.

Once upon a time, I mourned the deterioration of my body, but within this failing shell of flesh, my heart has been given new life.  My mental faculties have been honed to razor-sharpness against the whetstone of urgency.  My fears in this dunya – of rejection, of pity, of uselessness – have no place in serving my aakhirah.  I don't know how much longer I have to live, or how functional I will be for the remainder of my life, but my sole mission it to make it to Jannah and try my best to help my mother and my children make it there as well.

My lessons are your lessons

My life is your life, the only difference being I know I'm constantly reminded of death but you're probably still thinking you're immortal.  Just because you aren't old or sick doesn't mean you won't die tomorrow; alone, unprepared, and entirely ambushed by a spiritual audit that you've done nothing to prepare for.  So try this – set yourself a death date.

Six months from now, assume you're going to die.  Feel it, believe it, and imagine the circumstances that you're going to die in.  Think about the shock and pain on the faces of your parents, your spouse, and your children.  Imagine them crying over your body.  Think of the sins you never repented for, the people you never apologized to, and the regrets you'll have then about the choices you're making now.  Circle the date in your calendar, post it on your wall and work towards it every day.  Your life will change when you remember death daily, just like mine has.

And you don't even have to be sick.

For me, I'm grateful for my illness because apparently I needed my body to start dying in order for my heart to start coming alive.  There's an appreciable irony here – now that my hands are weak and shaking, I want most desperately to raise them in prayer.  Now that I can no longer kneel in sajda or even stand in prayer, my entire soul wants to swim in the depths ofkhushu and not worry about coming up for air.

Sometimes I extend my sujud and hope, just hope, that the angel of death will meet me in prostration.  Other times, I touch my children's faces and wonder how they'll look all grown up and whether I'll be with them.  Allāh promises us in the Qur'an that after hardship will always come ease.  Sometimes though – both come at the same time.  I've never been more tired, more weak, or less able to tie my own shoes, but I've never felt stronger, calmer, or happier to be Muslim.

Alḥamdulillāh.

post de-Mam

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alHamdulillaah thumma alHamdulillaah
Harini panas suam  kuku jer cuaca. Redup dan ada matahari sekali sekala.

dan harini Sarah dah sembuh daripada demam. Semalam pakai diaper jer: tak pakai baju dan tak makan ubat demam.

De-Mam

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Semalam hantar Sarah ke rumah cikgu Ateh sebab Ibu ke sekolah.

Balik petang, Sarah dah demam :( ,alHamdulillaah ala kulli haal. Baru hantar sehari jer, kesian Sarah. Doakan Sarah cepat sihat yer.

Bangi pun hujan sangat lebat petang semalam. Air naik di mana-mana. Ada tanah runtuh, pokok tumbang, tiang lampu patah, dan jalan sesak hampir di semua laluan. Allaahu musta'an.

king kong

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today Hajar, Sarah, and ibu went to the playground at around 10am.heh. We went to the tadika earlier to settle Adam and Maryam's fees, and as Hajar beria nak main 'king kong'(the thing yang boleh bergayut - test ketahanan lengan tu) at the playground since early in the morning, permintaan dilayan, alHamdulillaah.

Sarah doesnt like computer and ibu being together. lol. she would scream and grab ibu's hand off the mouse!
and now I have to give in to Sarah's persistence, mashaAllaah. We love our children more than the screen after all :)

Tanjung

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Last night we've made a quick trip to Tanjung Malim. Pakcu forgot to his certificate loaded folder at our place, and he needs it for a new job application. So, we left Bangi after Maghrib and reached Tanjung Malim around 10pm. Opah currently stays at tanjung Malim to look after Uwais and that's why we went there instead of Bidor.

Syurgawan of course la happy, but they fell asleep not long after Sungai Buloh. Hajar was understandably very tired of the long hours of schooling during the day. We are considering of revamping Hajar's schedule to give her more space and enough rest to enjoy learning and appreciating her childhood at the same time, insyaAllaah.

When we arrived, everyone else has gone to bed except Opah. Sarah, Maryam and Adam woke up and had some late dinner before exploring Uwais' toys. Hajar was very sleepy to join us.

We left Tanjung Malim shortly after Fajr and didn't even meet Uwais or his parents.huhuhu.had to beat the morning traffic heading towards KL. The traffic along PLUS southbound was clear until we approached Sg. Buloh. It looked jam packed from afar and we decided to follow Waze and took the Sungai Buloh's exit. Felt like a sight seeing trip early in the morning! even more beautiful with cheerful Sarah in my arms and Adam chit chatting at the back. Maryam and Hajar were still fast asleep. alhamdulillaah the detour was a good choice and lead us to SKVE. The traffic was smooth with just few hiccups points along Damansara.

A beautiful day today, masyaAllaah. All praises belong to HIM, the Almighty, The Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.

xoxo

Dhuha

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alHamdulillaah, yesterday we were inivited to a fundraising event, DHuha Talk by Syaikh Yahya Adel Ibrahim at Ampang. Abah got free tickets, so all of us were there!

The event was beautiful, with nice and friendly crowd and inspiring talk(s). Wardina Safiyyah was there to host the talk and Ustaz Hasrizal Jamil was also there to launch the fundraising. Khalifah Education Foundation is working on raising fund to upgrade their primary school facilities, to build a new secondary school complex, and to start a Hafiz/ah sponsorship program for students from low income families.

Since it was a Dhuha talk, the event was simple with no excess foods. There was nasi goreng, meehun goreng, kuih-kuih, coffee and tea after the talk.alHamdulillaah.

Syurgawan were enjoying themselves, filling in the forms on the table, checking on their souvenir bags, teasing each other and playing under the table!..as long as they did not disturb others and do it safely.

What added more to the happy weekend was opah and pakcik akmal visited us! alhamdulilaah.

Smile, all is okay alHamdulillaah!

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a month has passed, but the 'mengemas' is still in progress, alhamdulillaah a'la kulli haal

2 weeks ago we went to Bidor and Penang, alHamdulillaah(and it is only now I have the semangat to write LOL). It was Adam's birthday(indirect cause) and Hajar got schools off due to UPSR(better reason), and abah has just done with his training marathon,alHamdulillaah(exact reason). We bought a beautiful and delicious rainbow cake from our favorite bakery, Time Bakery, located at Seksyen 9 Bangi and owned by a humble Muslim. Headed off to Bidor on Wednesday night.

Came Thursday morning, Sarah was not well. She had cirit birit and muntah-muntah. Coincidently, Faiz and Nasuha(the cousins) also were not feeling well. Guess that the virus had spreaded across the country(they did not have any contact prior to that). Many cases reported across the peninsular, alHamdulillaah a'la kulli haal. Btw, a week before abah had a food poisoning and fever after coming back from a business trip to USM Kelantan. Sarah were not well for a few days :(. Unfortunately, after Sarah has recovered, it were Adam and Ibu's turn to endure the same symptoms. Poor children. AlHamdulillaah Allaah gave us back our health a few days later and Adam is now a one happy boy again.

After sihat, Sarah was more cheerful and has more appetite! Susu ibu seems not enough anymore and Sarah eats lots of nasi especially yang plain dan lembik a.k.a bubur.

Last weekend, ibu and abah attended Tafsir Surah Yusuf at UKM. Therefore, syurgawan spent the days at Cikgu Ateh's place(on Saturday, Hajar had a Bengkel Solat at school in the morning and she spent the rest of the day with Syaza at Syaza's place. She even joined Syaza to Shah Alam to visit a newborn syurgawan!). alHamdulillaah everything was great and wonderful.

rise and shine!

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ramadhan was gone, syawal too.
been in hiatus for almost two months now.

alhamdulilaah everything was great and fun. Blessings from Allah are abundance.

We've moved closer to the tadika now. Adam can just lari-lari to the tadika everyday as ibu walked with sarah and Maryam. Adam is happy for he can go to the tadika on his own now, hence he can be on time.

Alhamdulillaah, all is good and might be even better in this new home. We are still renting by the way. We have a lively neighborhood with syurgawan's friends and abah's childhood friend as neighbors. Syurgawan spent lots of time outside nowadays.

muazzin

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alHamdulillaah, Khamis lepas tadika Adam dan Maryam buat hari peristiwa:nuzul Qur'an. Ada banyak aktiviti yang diadakan untuk mendidik anak-anak mengenai pengertian nuzul Qur'an.

Awal pagi lagi, Adam beria kata,"Harini Adam nak dapat 2 hadiah!" Yakin betul dia sedangkan ibu tak pasti macamana Adam nak dapatkan 2 hadiah sebab sebelum-sebelum ni dia hanya dapat satu 'goodies bag' bila ada sambutan hari peristiwa di sekolah. Adam pun takde cakap macamana dia nak dapat 2 hadiah tu. Yang ibu tahu, akan ada pertandingan azan terbaik. Jadi, pagi tu dalam perjalanan ke tadika, ibu minta Adam praktis azan.

Sebelah petang, kami lambat sikit jemput anak-anak dari tadika. Lewat dalam setengah jam. semua dah menunggu di taska sekali dengan kakak Hajar dan adik Sarah. Tengah main di halaman taska dengan seronok sebab ada banyak bouncy rides dan slides. Guess what, Adam dengan cerianya tunjuk 2 hadiah yang dia dapat, masyaAllaah wal Hamdulillaah. Dia berjaya dapat azan terbaik dan mewarna. Hmm..bila Adam jelas apa yang dia nak, berusaha, dan Allah permudahkan. alHamdulillaah. Hadiahnya belon bentuk tukul dan fail Angry Bird.


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Adam batuk-batuk, jadi kena makan ubat. Sambil tunggu ibu siapkan ubat Adam, dia baca label pada kotak ubat batuk cap Ibu dan Anak yang diletakkan atas meja.

Adam: Ibu..anak..eh, ibu dan anak jer? Ayahnye mane?

LOL

nisfu, half

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assalamualaikum wa rahmatullaah

sahabat dan saudara, ramadhan kareem.

lama dah kami tak post updates di blog. syoknya Ramadhan kan, sampai benda-benda lain tolak tepi, alHAmdulillaah!

tahun ni my smart princess, kakak Hajar puasa tak tinggal lagi, mashaAllah wal hamdulillaah. Dari day 1 sampai semalam, bangun sahur setiap pagi. Hari pertama tu memanglah balik sekolah merengek lapar, dahaga,dan letih. Tulah kali pertama berpuasa semenjak masuk darjah 1. Memang letih sebab dari pagi ke petang sekolah. Pagi dah ke taska, lepas tu sambung sekolah kebangsaan. Walaupun balik awal masa bulan Ramadhan ni, jam 530 petang, tapi memang mencabar bagi Hajar. a'la kulli haal, Hajar Berjaya menempuhnya Alhamdulillah. Ibu tak paksa Hajar puasa, tapi bila dia merengek nak makan minum, ibu pujuk dengan menerangkan penghayatan lapar dan dahaga tu untuk merasai apa yang orang susah rasa. Allah suka orang yang berpuasa, dan Hajar tolong ibu abah untuk dapat ganjaran dari Allah. Lepas tu, mandikan dia dan bagi apa-apa aktiviti yang boleh buat dia lupa sekejap. biasanya borak dengan ibu atau Hajar buat kerja-kerja seni dia:melukis, buat kereta lembu, buat kad raya, etc. Memandangkan Hajar pun dah 7 tahun, dia dah kena solat 5 waktu. Jadi, walaupun dia kata letih dan tak larat, kami pastikan Hajar solat dulu sebelum tidur.


Adam, our brave boy. Day 1, dia merajuk sebab ibu tak kejut 'kuat-kuat' untuk bangun sahur. malam sebelumnya memang dia bersemangat dan bersahur, tapi bila kami kejutkan dia takmo bangun. Bila dah pagi dan kejut untuk ke tadika, perkataan pertama Adam sebut,"kenapa tak kejut Adam sahur?" dengan nada yang sangat kecewa. Kesian jugak tengok dia dan terpaksalah memujuk beberapa minit. Pagi tu, Adam sarapan sebelum ke tadika. Bila jemput waktu petang, muka tak larat dan bibir kering. Rupanya dia 'puasa' sepanjang berada di taska. sampai rumah jer, terus makan dan minum. Day 2, cepat jer bangun bila dikejutkan sahur, alHamdulillaah, sampailah semalam. Dari Day 2 sampai semalam, Adam puasa penuh. Kekadang tu, sahur dengan mata tertutup lagi. Boleh juga habis makan dan minum. Menu kegemaran Adam masa bersahur ialah cocoa crunch dan untuk berbuka ialah 'burger segiempat' nya(roti john).

Maryam, our bright princess, masih belum berpuasa. cuma dua hari kebelakangan ni, dia join sahur. masa siang hari  tu, selalu jugak dia ajak kakak abang makan dan minum sama. alHamdulillaah diorang tak tergoda.hehehe.

Our baby Sarah, sekarang dah laju berjalan dan membebel2. Dah tahu sign language sikit2 bila nak menyusu dan gigi atas dan bawah tumbuh lagi, alHamdulillaah!

ramadhan kami juadah nya biasa-biasa saja. banyak hari jugak sekadar makan masakan rumah dan tak singgah bazar ramadhan. Air pun dah tak beli air bazar dah. cukup apa yang disediakan di rumah. lagi sihat dan jimat kan, insyaAllaah.kuih jer beli sikit untuk anak-anak. menu lebih kurang jer. kuih karipap, onde-onde, dan roti john beli kat bazar, seringgit dua setiap satu.kadang-kadang tu dapat bubur lambuk dari surau, Alhamdulillah.

Peek-a-boo!

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Today Sarah did something funny. She was sleepy and cranky, so Ibu nursed her and she fell asleep. Then, ibu put her on the bed and laid besides Sarah to make sure she really has fell asleep. Ibu was about to get up when Sarah suddenly said,"Chak!" cheerfully. LOL, terkejut! Ingatkan dah tidur nyenyak, boleh pulak main peek-a-boo. Rerupanya dia taknak tido lagi.

Throne is singgahsana?

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Yesterday, we had a conversation over dinner. One funny moment when ibu said,"bla..bla..bla..di atas singgahsana." Hajar said,"Oooo, singgahsana." Ibu thought Hajar understood what is singgahsana, but then she said confidently,"Tu yang 'singgah sana', singgah sini tu kan!"

LOL

Kaca dan Mata

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Sarah loves to grab spectacles whenever she saw one. Ibu's glasses was her favorite, then abah's, then anyone else's that were within her reach.

We have to be very careful with our glasses now since Hajar, Adam, and Maryam were not fond of glasses when they were at Sarah's age.

Sarah also loves to climb the stairs, chairs, etc. Plus, she loves the bathroom!

Extra caution is the key now as ibu was easily distracted and worn out with 4 young hearts at home.

SPORTS DAY

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Today was the sports day and we went out as early as 730am, but there was a quite thick haze outside! walHamdulillaah a'la kulli haal.

We enjoyed the sports, witnessed Adam lead the pledge-English version,

and watched Adam and Maryam and competing with high spirits. Adam made a nice move today when he had to go through the 'palang'. Others simply crawled below the barrier, but Adam ran fast and skidded through it. A very nice, and creative move, mashaAllaah. His team won the first place, alHamdulillaah for his highly energetic team mates.

Maryam also did very good as a 4 year old. She ran fast and participated eagerly too. She was a bit shy but it didn't stop her, alHAmdulillaah.

Hajar was having fun with her girlfriends, running around, entertaining Sarah, and eating, and drinking. Sarah cooperated very well, alHamdulillaah, despite the unhealthy weather and heat. For record, there were no rains for weeks already, and this haze reminds many of ad-Dukhan mentioned in the Quran. Allaahu musta'an..

We went straight back home afterwards, couldn't stand the haze any longer. May Allaah give us good health and bless us with pouring rains soon, Ameen.

Adam

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Adam, our only boy(so far :) ), alHamdulillaah.

He is very energetic, bubbly, and brave.

He is our time keeper now as he can tell time a bit already. He is the earliest to get ready in the morning. One special thing is he loves to remind us 'dah masuk waktu solat!'.

"Ibu abah, dah Maghrib!"

"Dah azan, solat Asar!"

"Ibu dah solat ke?"

"Ibu, ibu, solat Subuh."

alHamdulillah he understands that solat is to be performed as soon as the waktu dah masuk. Kalau terlambat sikit, Adam akan bising. He would notice when ibu didnt perform solat as usual, and he would asked. Ibu had to explain the excuse given to women.luckily, he has heard that women are special before from the Upin Ipin cartoon when Kak Ros didnt fast during Ramadhan. Now, he will ask," Kenapa ibu tak solat, cuti ker?"

He is very enthusiastic in reading Iqra', and will not mind going over several pages at a time.

He always ask to play games in the phone or computer, but rarely given the chance. He didn't complain when ibu abah didn't allow him to play games though.

Tomorrow will be the kindy's sports day, and Adam will read the English version of the sports day pledge insyaAllaah. He is eagerly waiting for tomorrow(Maryam and Hajar too).

Maryam

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Maryam was born in the States, and has a bigger build than her siblings(coincidence eh?), and she has the fairest skin.

AlHamdulillaah, she has a very strong personality. it is just that we(abah dan ibu) tidak memanjakan sesiapa melebih2. If you did wrong, then you did wrong. Let's think of a way to make it up, insyaAllaah.

Maryam banyak senyap dan buat kerja sendiri like playing pretend, and making  a good use of abang and kakak's old books. Since she can read a bit now, and she knows numbers and simple calculation, she basically enjoy answering, filling in the blanks,coloring, and writing on all the pages that were left 'untouched' by abang and kakak. They got the books from kindy as their kindy will let them take all their books home at the end of the school year. Most of the times, Maryam loves doing the activities on her own, and will only ask for help when she really has no clue.

Tapi jangan terkejut bila Maryam jadi garang because she will fight for her rights. If she really wanted to get or to do something, she will try her best to get it. If she is really into what she is doing, don't bother calling her name as she rarely answers.

She loves playing with adik too, but sometimes went a bit rough on adik as Maryam does not fully understand that adik is still a baby who cannot do many things as good as abang kakak.

Sarah

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Heart melting when Sarah waved goodbye and flashed a flying kiss in the morning as ibu walked away. Was thinking of turning back and giving her a tight hug and kiss, but then, Sarah would cry and don't want to stay at the nursery. Tough choices everyday, walHamdulillaah a'la kulli haal. She no longer cries or refuses to stay at the nursery, though a hint of sadness is still showing in her eyes.

When ibu hug and kiss Sarah, she will hug and kiss your cheek in return. Wonderful feeling, mashaAllaah.

Sarah has a favorite small, board book. It is about different sounds around the Sesame Street. Sarah loves flipping through the pages and 'read' them. She will usually grab the book while ibu put her clothes on or change her diaper. She will giggle, laugh, and try to imitate when ibu read the book aloud while making all the different sounds.

Rivers remind me of paradise

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wouldnt you agree if I say, the cutest 'walk' is the walk of a child who has just learned to walk?
enjoying the moments watching Sarah took her woobly, cute steps around. A few steps at a time, adorned with the beautiful, proud smile on her lips, mashaAllaah. Yup, take those first steps no matter how hard and terrifying they are for at the end it will feel very satisfying with no regrets,inshaAllaah.

Plus, Sarah now officially calls me 'Ibu,' knows to hold a pen/cil and menconteng around, loves to menyuap others, and is very curious of the bathroom(especially the water!).

Last Thursday, Allaah gave us the chance to appreciate the beauty of the nature at a beautiful place in Janda Baik, Pahang, and Sarah definitely enjoyed her time splashing in the river with abah and her siblings, alHamdulillaah. The water was (refreshingly) cool and the scenery was just so calming, mashAllaah. It sure felt very good to go back to the nature.

Before that, we went to Ampang and played bowling! It was funny and fun with the children rolling the ball on the lane.

alHamdulillaah, we had an amazing day together. For sure, it is gonna be wayyyyyyyy amazing in Jannah as a family, ameen.

The first step

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Sarah took her first step, alHamdulillaah. She decided to show it off in font of tokpak, and luckily ibu was there to witness it. MashaAllaah, sarah eagerly walked on her own since then. From only single steps to a few steps in one day.

Independent is berdikari

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One afternoon after school, Adam came to me and proudly said," Ibu, today my teacher at school let me wash my cup after I've finished my milk."

Since then, I'll let him play with the dish soap and wash his cup and utensils himself. The same goes to Hajar. Maryam has not shown any interest in that area yet.

Hajar get to wash and clean her school shoes by herself after a few times of training..ehehheehe. She surely enjoyed playing with the brush and kapur kasut!, and to see the result:shining clean shoes!

I also let my syurgawan help me with the laundry. Whenever they offered to help, I'd give them the space. They sometimes raced to put the soiled clothes into the washing machine(which is fortunately a front loading washer), to put the detergent and softener into their respective compartments, to turn on the dials, and to push the buttons. I would be standing there to answer any questions they might have, and to manage any dispute between the siblings..ehehe.

We also had fun hanging the clothes to dry, and picking up the clothes at the end of the day. My syurgawan would ask "how to this and that?", "where to put this?", "should I do this?", "am I doing this correctly?", etc.
Adam enjoyed the 'you get the dried clothes from the rack, and throw them at me. I'll catch the clothes and put them into the basket' game. Ahahaha...an effective way to replace the 'throwing ball' game. I get my job done and my children had fun at the same time.

My syurgawan also get to have their hands on the mop, broom, vacum, etc. We do the cleaning chores together.

To sum up, this is not a child labor activity. This is to let them know I trust them. This is to let them be independent and be confident of themselves. I hope they will be responsible even for the smallest things around them, and do the things they can do themselves without putting the burden on others: their friends, colleagues, spouses, etc. InsyaAllaah. Ameen.

Gerbang Syurga

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Doakan gerbang syurga kami dikurniakan kesihatan yang baik ya. Minggu ini tokmak, tokpak, dan opah semua tak berapa sihat. Demam, lelah, dan gout. Semua dah pergi jumpa doktor dan sedang berehat.

Kami dah jumpa opah semalam. InsyaAllaah minggu ni nak pi jenguk tokmak dan tokpak pula.

Rahmati dan ampuni mereka ya Allaah, kasihi mereka sebagai mana mereka telah mengasihi kami semasa kami kecil lagi. Allaahumma Ameen.

Teeth

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One effective way to have fun(I think) is to listen to our children's innocent conversations. They are often interesting and funny, and very enlightening too, mashaAllaah.

My sweet girls had a conversation over dinner tonight.

Hajar: Manusia kan ada 2 jenis gigi(Human has 2 types of teeth)

Maryam: Haah, satu gigi kuning. Satu lagi gigi putih.(Yup, one is the yellow teeth. Another one is the white teeth).

Hajar: Taklah. Kalau budak-budak, gigi susu. Orang dewasa, gigi kekal. Orang tua, gigi palsu!
(Nope. It's baby teeth for children, permanent teeth for adults, and dentures for old folks!)


LOL.

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I would like to start with our sweet Sarah. Tomorrow she will turn 1, insyaAllaah. My home birth was 1 year ago, and it still feels very sweet and will be remembered that way,always. One full year filled with blessings, cheeky smiles, bright days, beautiful nights, soothing giggles, energetic crawls and climbs, and meaningful cries. What not to love and be grateful with a huge blessing named Sarah? AlHamdulillaah.

At 1(insyaAllaah), Sarah is now able to climb the stairs super fast when no one was aware. She would smiled and babbled when caught in action. She has gotten four teeth that adorn her smiles beautifully. Everyday, her hair would be styled in the 'kelapa sawit' style. She doesnt refuse her baby meals anymore,and Sarah loves banana very much. She knows how to angkat takbir and rukuk and sujud whenever a sejadah was put on the floor, and Allahuakbar was proclaimed. She will follow along whenever the dua of traveling( or other verses from the quran) was recited in the car(in her own baby language,though). A baby's progress was simply amazing, mashaAllaah. Alhamdulillaah ya Allaah for your blessing.

Now, we move to Maryam.Maryam is a girl who has got her own unique personality. She loves hugs and affection, and would be very angry at things she doesnt like. She can be very loud at times, and be very quite and timid at other times. She would sit and do things that she likes whole heartedly, but would barely give attention if she was not interested. She likes drinking lots of water, but slowly reducing her foods intake. She still loves sweet, but cannot finish a lollipop by herself anymore. She loves upin ipin like Adam, and rarely paying attention to others cartoons or shows. The simplest way to calm her down was to just give her a warm hug.

Adam, our only boy. He is very talkative and energetic. He is very good at negotiation and mencuri hati. Drinks lots of milk,but requires constant reminders to drink more plain water. We thought that he needs more water since he easily caught runny nose and cough. He loves the trips to masjid and also a teh buih(teh tarik) session at the restaurant with abah afterwards. Knows how to read and write, but always wanted to speed read and write causing him to end up with lots of corrections to make. He was very hardworking when it comes to homeworks. Sometimes, loves to help with house chores and quite good at mengemas.

Hajar, our kakak. She is doing very good at Darjah 1. She is embarassed that her tooth fell out and now she is rongak. Another tooth is very wobbly now, and she refuses to go to the dentist. Not that she is afraid of the dentist, but she doesnt want to looose another tooth and making her rongak even more apparent. She would prepare her school bag and things she needed the night before by herself. She washed her shoes by herself too. Every morning she would go to kelas KAFA,the same place with adik Sarah, just at a different room and level in the house.so, sometimes, she would look after adik if adik was cranky. Kakak is a big help at home. She helps with adik-adik. Sometimes she can be very garang, but can be very sensitive  too.

Bismillaah

Hari ini para syurgawan cilik berusaha untuk mendapatkan g-anjaran.awal pagi tadi Adam dan hajar Bantu ibu sidai kain manakala Maryam jaga(ajak bermain) adik Sarah.


lepas semua dah selesai dan bekerjasama dengan jayanya,masing-masing ligat memikirkan nak minta hadiah apa.

Siap bincang lagi sesama sendiri. Akhirnya, syurgawan sepakat nak hadiah hari guru,nak hadiahkan kat cikgu masa sambutan hari guru nanti,insyaAllah.

Very thoughtful alhamdulillah.

Survived

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Alhamdulillaah,we have survived the week without abah....uhuhu...

post PRU 13

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we all have made it from Bangi-Penang-Bangi(add penang-kluang-penang for abah) walHamdulillaah. The excitement, the laughter, tears, joy, and disappointment were all there these past few days. We've planned, and Allaah is the best Planner of all. I am asking for every good in every situation, ameen.

It's time to move on, work harder and better insyaAllaah.

oh btw, syurgawan are back to school. alHamdulillaah that the sakit mata virus has gone(but, abah is still fighting it). We've decided that Sarah needed a new environment, which is hopefully better than her last nursery in terms of the cleanliness and learning and growing, ameen.

motivation

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what motivates your day?

what has motivated us to continue living, fighting, smiling, giving?

for me, it is my one,supreme God, Allaah.

Him Alone is worth every seconds of my life, every single breath I take

then come my parents, my husband, my children, my people, my nation, my world.

I love you all, appreciate this short break - free time - before it is gone and filled with to-do's.

Pilhan ...

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alHamdulillaah Sarah dah sihat sepenuhnya, sirna sudah semua sakit mata, selesema, demam, dan batuk. Dan giginya yang 2 batang kat gusi atas(gigi depan) sedang tumbuh perlahan-lahan.

Abah, Adam, Maryam, dan Hajar pula sedang pulih perlahan-lahan daripada sakit mata yang ganas itu. Mata depa dah tak bengkak dah, alHamdulillaah, merah pun dah hampir hilang. Tapi, masih lagi nampak sembab dan agak sepet(lebih sepet daripada mata sepet yang sedia ada.hehe). Semoga semua cepat sembuh dan sihat sepenuhnya seperti sedia kala.

Sarah dah masuk minggu ketiga tak pergi taska..horey horey! (maknanya ibu dah tinggalkan kerja lab masuk 3 minggu jugak yer..huwa huwa!)

Maryam dan Adam dah masuk minggu kedua tak ke tadika. Adam dah nampak sangat bosan tak dapat ke tadika, tapi kemaslahatan kawan-kawan di tadika lebih utama. Lebih baik dah sembuh betul baru pergi tadika supaya tak berjangkit dan merebak. Kasihan anak-anak tu. Maryam ok jer duduk rumah, alHamdulillaah.

Hajar pula dah mula ke sekolah minggu ini. Matanya pun dah tak merah walaupun masih nampak 'sembab.' Tak mau dia rasa ketinggalan sangat dalam kelas. Tapi, Hajar pergi sekolah petang jer, KAFA sebelah pagi tak pegi.

Abah pula tetap bekerja seperti biasa, gigih tanpa rehat, mashaAllaah. (How I want to be just like him, ameen)

Ok, sekarang kena demam lain pulak, Demam Pilihanraya, Semoga yang terbaik menang untuk memimpin kami rakyat marhaen, Ameen.

bila mata....

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alHamdulillah a'la kulli haal, masuk hari ni dah hari ke-7 bekalan air ke rumah terputus. Ada masanya, bekalan air ada dengan tekanan rendah sehingga tak dapat masuk dan isi semula tangki air rumah di tingkat atas. Air kena tadah dari sinki dapur dan angkut ke bilik air untuk kegunaan harian. Basuh kain tak dapat sebab air tak cukup. Hujung minggu lepas, kami pegi ofis abah untuk mandi sebab air dah takde langsung.uhuhuhu....kain hantar ke dobi,itupun satu beg jer yang kebanyakannya baju sekolah syurgawan. Yang tinggal kat rumah masih baaanyakkk lagi. Allaahu yusahhil, ya Allaah permudahkanlah, ameen.


Hari ni juga dah masuk minggu ke-2 ibu duduk rumah. Minggu lepas Sarah kena sakit mata, batuk, demam, dan selesema. alHamdulillaah mata Sarah dah beransur pulih. Tapi demam, batuk, dan selesema masih ada lagi. Tapi, Hajar dan Adam pula terjangkit sakit mata. Mata Hajar paling teruk sampaikan dapat MC 3 hari. Tengok keadaan harini, rasanya Rabu pun tak pulih lagi mata Hajar tu.  Kena kedua-dua belah mata. Kalau Adam, bengkak dan merah sebelah kanan je.

alkisahnye, susah betul nak bubuh ubat mata titik kat mata para syurgawan ni. Kena bergelut dulu baru diorang bukak mata, tu pun sikit jer. Ubat kekadang sangkut kat bulu mata jer.uhuhu..

Maryam pula, alHamdulillaah sihat walafiat.

Doakan kami semua cepat sembuh dan sihat ya :)

visitors

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these past few days, Sarah and Ibu stayed at home. Fever, cough, flu, 'teething', and conjunctivitis (right eye only) decided to visit Sarah all at the same time, walHamdulillaah a'la kulli haal. My little Sarah was a bit cranky, but still maintain her good and easy attitude, adorable mashaAllaah.

she has shown off her latest acquired skills: threw a flying kiss, and salam+cium tangan ibu and abah. how sweet was that?

her tooth was slowly showing up on the middle, upper gum. looks painful ya as the gum was slightly swollen and reddish.may Allaah make it easy on her, ameen.

wacana

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hari ini kami ke UKM untuk tumpang sekaki program Wacana Secangkir Teh, Pengubat Letih yang mana penceramah adalah Ustaz Hasrizal. Program sejarah Turki lah lebih kurang nya.

semua pergi, abah,ibu, dan para syurgawan yang memang teruja setiap kali pergi ke 'ceramah.'

sebelum ni memang tak berapa ambil tahu pasal Turki sebab Kamal Attartuk dan sekularisme yang diamalkan di Turki. Hanya sejak akhir-akhir ini bila Recep Tayyed Erdogan jadi perdana menteri dan reformasi Turki yang berlaku, barulah Turki menarik minat, sebab Islam 'berjaya' di sana. Ditambah lagi dengan Ustaz Hasrizal yang suka menulis tentang pengalamannya. walaupun belum baca lagi buku ustaz yang Secangkir Teh, Pengubat Letih, tu, tapi tertarik hati untuk mendengar wacana kali ini memandangkan penceramahnya pun baru balik dari 'lawatan sambil belajar' ke Turki baru-baru ini. Ada isu-isu yang segar dari Turki.

alkisahnya, memang menarik alHamdulillaah! sejarah yang diceritakan dengan cara yang menyedarkan bahawa sejarah bukan sesuatu yang membosankan dan tidak perlu di-dramatik-kan pun. Terlalu dramatik akan jadi 'exaggeration' yang boleh mencacatkan kebenaran yang perlu ada.

syurgawan? memang gembira beraktiviti di luar dewan: lari-lari,minum air,makan kuih, etc. Ibu dan Sarah jer masuk dewan(yang lain-lain sekejap-sekejap jer).

alHamdulillaah, program yang sepatutnya 4 jam jer tu jadik 5 jam. ehehe ilmu memang menarik dan kalau boleh nak tambah masa lagi kan.

The New Dawn

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semalam para syurgawan tinggal dengan abah dan Sarah menumpang teduh di taska(sedih~). Ibu pergi mana?

alHamdulillaah, ibu dapat kesempatan pegi kelas alMaghrib di Taylor's Lakeside campus di Sunway. Kelas sehari tu nak belajar pasai FiqH of Tawbah: The New Dawn. alHamdulillaah thumma alHAmdulillaah.

Ramai kita ni ingat taubat bila dah nak mati jer kan. uhuhuhu...padahal rugi banyak dah kita ni kalau tak bertaubat banyak-banyak kali. Apa taknya, Allaah bukan sahaja ampunkan dosa-dosa kita tu, malah akan ditukar jadi amal baik pulak. 'top-up' over 'top-up'. haish, alangkah bestnya!

hujan, harta, anak, bahagia, ampunan, redha Allaah, cinta Allaah - semua ni boleh dapat dengan taubat. mashaAllaah tabarakAllaah. Allah has made everything so very easy for us that we dont have even a tiny bit reason to lose hope on HIM.

Gone with the virus

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alHamdulillaah ala kulli haal,
"Ibu, Hajar kena bawa gambar famili harini. Ada projek Bahasa Inggeris, macam ni," sambil menunjuk satu halaman di dalam buku teks.

Owh, kena bawak gambar, kertas warna, gam, gunting, dan benang, dan penyangkut pakaian juga. Nak gantung gambar-gambar tu nanti. Zaman sekarang ni bukan subjek seni jer ada aktiviti macam ni, macam semua subjek ada. Hampir setiap hari kena bawa kertas warna dan alatan lain ke sekolah. good? bad? what do you think?

Lepas tu, kalutlah nak print gambar memandangkan sekarang kita dah tak print gambar dan simpan hardcopy sangat kan. NAk print kat rumah tak dapat sebab abah bawa laptop sekali awal-awal pagi. JAdi, cadangnya nak print di printing shop kat fakulti. Semangat.

Dah sampai fakulti, terus ke printing shop tu.  Boleh print dan fotostat kat situ. Pegilah kat PC yang ada label "untuk print color sahaja." Duduk, plugged in USB, dan try bukak gambar yang dah disimpan awal tadi(di rumah). Walla! tak nampak satu fail pun dalam USB tu kecuali folder "RECYCLER".virus infection, walHamdulillaah a'la kulli haal. To make it worse, ibu cuba pulak satu lagi USB drive yang memang ibu simpan banyak dokumen dalam tu, dan yang tu pun kena jugak.(sebab awal tu ingatkan USB yang rosak.Lepas yang kedua pun jadi macam tu, barulah perasan yang dah kena virus..erks!).

Hajar kecewa sebab tak dapat print gambar :(

alHAmdulillaah, sampai rumah dapat recover semua files ikut instructions yang di-googled.

p/s: balik dari sekolah, Hajar bagitahu, "tak jadi buat harini Ibu. Buat esok gambar-gambar tu."
*_*

le grandeur

Here we are!

Main air

Tired of waiting

Earth Day

Indoor playground

Peek-a-boo

Caught a green gator!

row,row,row your boat

going to the dinner

A gate to heaven

Bismillaahh

Alhamdulillaah

We visited opah this weekend,the last time was a month ago.

Opah was not feeling well due to runny nose and a slight fever,may Allah grant her speedy recovery,ameen.

Adam got a coconut which he called 'mr coconut'.the girls wanted to ask opah for inai,but canceled it knowing that Opah was not feeling well.

We stayed overnight at opah's place and left early Sunday morning(not so early lah, 830-ish :P) because traffic heading south was expected to be heavy since it was the end of school's holiday(the traffic IS heavy right now. Somebody took 2 hours to reach Kampar from Ipoh. Allaahu musta'an)

Since it was still early, we decided to make a stop at Shah Alam's Public Library. this was our second visit and syurgawan were really happy! This time, ibu spent time with syurgawan at the Kids Zone and read several books for them. Sarah was enjoying the time guling-guling and crawling around the colorful place. She enjoyed sitting on the large, green bean bag too! Adam asked to play with the Mac computer, and he sat in front of it watching youtube videos for almost 45 minutes! He got 1 hour actually, but it was too long to sit in front of the screen LOL, So, he left the screen to join us.(he ran back and forth during the 45 minutes too: asking for assistance). Abah went upstairs and borrowed several books. After an hour+, we went to the cafe(hungry!) and had our brunch, sitting at the cafe with beautiful view of Shah Alam city. It was wonderful visit, alHamdulillaah.

That was our short and sweet weekend. We hope that you have spent some quality time with your loved ones too :)

ribut petir dan hujan

bismillaah

alHamdulillaah
Jumaah mubarakah friends :)


today was a mixed weather:sunny, gloomy, cloudy, thunders, and pouring rain walHamdulillaah. Blessed abundantly with rains.

Today Sarah didnt go to nursery since the nursery was closed due to the widespread infection of sakit mata. uhuhu. So, we stayed at home with Hajar while Adam and Maryam went to kindy. Abah was not home since yesterday, he was at Gombak attending a camping with KMS students.

Today, abah fetched Adam and Maryam from kindy and it was raining really heavily. Nice to mandi hujan at moments like this, but somehow syurgawan decided to stay indoors, hehe.

bowling & the museum, what's the link?

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alHamdulillaah

Last Tuesday, we decided that our syurgawan needed a break from tadika and Hajar deserved a cuti-cuti Malaysia sempena cuti sekolah ni. So, our first stop was Kompleks Metropoint Kajang in front of Mydin Kajang. Adam really wanted to go bowling, and there was Ampang Superbowl there on the 3rd floor, and he was asking for Subway cookies too, and there was Subway on the ground floor(also got Cool Blog, Burger King, etc). Very convenient one stop, with only RM1 per entry underground, guarded parking. Nice, mashaAllaah.I have to mention that the place was not crowded on most weekdays during office hours!

So, we went to the bowling arena and found out that all lanes were sold out, lots of people! If we wanted to wait, had to wait for almost 1 hour lorr. After successfully pujuk Adam that it was more fun to go to some other place and do other activities, we left - didnt want to waste time waiting hehe. After that, we went to Subway and bought some cookies for syurgawan. "wah, bestnyer!" para syurgawan kata :)

Next stop, Masjid Negara, abah wanted to meet a friend there and as it was already Zuhur time, we prayed there. As always, syurgawan love all the beautiful and spacious masaajid around Malaysia. They love the sights of fountains, people, marble floors, etc. After solat, abah sat there and met his friend. Meanwhile, we went to the Islamic Arts Museum! Never been there before, and we took this opportunity to pay a visit.

Th entrance ticket was RM12 for adults and free admission for children of 6 years of age and younger. Discounted ticket of RM6 is available for students and elders. The museum has 2 levels of exhibition hall, a children library cum activity room, a special exhibition room, a cafe, and a lobby(ada lagi kot, but couldnt recall :P). Syurgawan seronok tengok miniatures of grand masaajid around the world, the kiswa(kaabah door's cover), the Qur'ans. etc. sebab tak ramai orang, depa pun berlari-lari dalam tu sambil tanya itu ini. nak pegi children's library, but it was closed :(

we spent about an hour there before we went back to masjid negara to meet abah. oh ya, kami jalan kaki jer sbb the two buildings were just opposite each other.

after that, we went home, tired and happy walHamdulillaah.

Library! - updated

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It's Sunday,and we went to perpustakaan Shah Alam!
the library is huge, beautiful, and practical,mashaAllaah.

It is located next to kelab golf shah alam(not sure the exact name :P) and close to TTDI Jaya. It has a lake besides it and the view was wonderful. We can see the dome of masjid Shah Alam from the cafe. 1st floor got the kid's zone. It is colorful, full of books, computers, and other facilities specially designed for young readers. Syurgawan were wow-ed by the sight and quickly dissappeared among the shelves and books. Noise is allowed haha :) very important for children since they love to express their feelings out loud kan, no shy-shy cat lorr.

They also has 3D theatre and XD room. it is RM7 per person for the 3D movies, and RM10 for the XD ride. We sent syurgawan to watch The Lion King 3D, but they only watched the first 30 minutes before they rushed towards the exit. My syurgawan were simply not accustomed to watching TV or the like for long, we didnt have TV for many years(and the one we borrowed from Opah was off for many days already, TV couldnt 'survived' in our household alHamdulillaah).

tbc

Le Grandeur - updated!

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alHamdulillaah


Last weekend was spent at Le Grandeur resort, Senai Johor Bharu! Syurgawan spent hours and hours in the kiddy wading pool and in the bathtub(in our room).

Not so many people were in the pool area as most of the resort's guests were either there for conference(or the like) or for Legoland and JPO(Johore Premium outlets). these attraction places are just few minutes away from the resort.

---karangan/essay style LOL

Bismillaah

alHamdulillaah, harini kami di Le Grandeur Palm Resort, Johor Bharu. Abah ada program di sini, jadi kami pun ikut sekali. Kami sampai semalam selepas perjalanan lebih kurang 4 jam dari Bangi. Sebelum ke hotel ni, kami singgah di Masjid dekat lapangan terbang Senai tu. MashaAllaah, cantik sangat masjid tu tapi agak lengang(jauh dari penempatan orang kot?)

lepas tu barulah kami checked in, angkut barang masuk bilik, dan keluar untuk makan malam. Kami ke pekan Senai dan makan di restoran D’Ambang. Simple jer restorannya tapi makan sedap dan murah. Bubur nasi dia special dengan kangkung belacan, kacang goreng, lobak kering, dan ikan bilis pedas. Yang lain order sup daging, nasi pataya, ayam penyet, jus epal+susu, jus durian belanda, air sirap bandung, air sirap bandung soda, air teh halia dan air suam. Semua sekali hanya RM34.(3 dewasa dan 3 kanak-kanak.sarah tak termasuk la). alHamdulillaah, lepas makan dan hantar pakcik Ariff, kami pun balik bilik dan zzzzzz.

Pagi tadi syurgawan pakat bangun awal. Seronok betul depa pi main air dalam bilik air. Dah memang bath tub la yang akan jadi tumpuan. Lepas tu, bersiap sebab diorang nak jalan-jalan sekitar kawasan hotel. Ibu memang larat bawa jalan-jalan sekitar sini jer sebab abah tengah keje kan. Keluar jer, tuju kolam kat tengah-tengah tu. Memang seronok sebab kolam kanak-kanak besar dan takde orang! Matahari pun dah naik, jadi tak sejuk sangat la kalau berendam lama pun. Sedar tak sedar, hamper 2 jam jugak syurgawan berenang-renang main air sesama diorang sambil ibu dan Sarah tunggu tepi kolam. Sambil-sambil tu, ibu tolak Sarah keliling kolam jer sebab nak kena jaga jugak yang duk ralit dalam kolam tu. Last2, Sarah tertidur bila dah letih. alHamdulillaah angin bertiup sepoi-sepoi bahasa bagi Sarah lena lagi.

Lepas agak-agak dah lama sangat tunggu tu, ibu ajak diorang naik biarpun diorang nak jugak berendam lagi haha! Kenala pujuk, jenuh tunggu berjam2. Lepas salin baju, ingat nak bawak pegi makan, sangkut pulak kat kids playground. Seronok diorang main like they own the place. Adam siap pujuk nak main ping pong. Layan kan je lah.

Dah seronok main tu, barulah beransur ke restoran. "Lapar sangat-sangat ni," bak kata Adam. Memang berselera lah syurgawan makan tengahari tadi. Lepas makan, ibu ajak balik bilik nak bagi diorang rehat dulu. Tupun awal2 diorang kata nak jalan lagi, tak nak tido. Tapi dah sampai bilik, tak sampai 5 minit diorang dah lelap. Memang letih sangat la tu :) 

Bola, Hujan, dan Rahmat Tuhan

Bismillaah


Adam: dah 12 markah!

Ibu: Yea, ibu dah dapat 12 markah! (excited sebab dah dekat nak '20'. Adam letak syarat kena main baling bola sampai dapat 20 markah..uhuk)

Adam: Eh, taklah. 12 tu, 1 markah ibu, 2 markah Adam. 1 dan 2, jadilah 12.(dengan yakinnya)

Ibu: erks?

ahaha...kreatif saja anak ibu seorang ni, mashaAllaah. Sekarang dia sangat suka bermain bola:bola getah tu, main baling-baling bola. Kawan bermain adalah ibu, ibu tak boleh bagi alasan taknak main.

Sambil baling-baling bola tu, Adam akan mengira markah. Ibu ikut jer apa kata Adam sebab ibu taktau macam mana skema pemarkahan Adam LOL. Takper, yang penting Adam seronok dengan menghabiskan masa bersama ibu :)

Semalam, Adam tak dapat main bola sebab hujan dan Adam ikut abah ke ofis sambil menunggu kakak Hajar balik daripada sekolah. Petang sebelum tu, pun tak dapat main bola sebab hujan lebat dan ibu bagi Adam dan Maryam mandi hujan selepas pulang dari tadika. Mereka berdua sangat gembira mandi hujan sambil menyanyi-nyanyi di halaman rumah. Rahmat Allaah, kegembiraan buat syurgawan, mashaAllaah tabarkallaah :)

Dentist

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today, HAjar and ibu went to the dentist. We decided to cabut gigi Hajar(depan, bawah)..I heard the dentist said, no7,1...whatever it means LOL...it refers to the tooth la kan?
Gigi kekal Hajar is coming out dan dah keluar dari gusi tapi gigi susu masih bertahan taknak tercabut. Jadi, kenalah cabut untuk bagi ruang untuk gigi yang tengah tumbuh tu. alHamdulillaah gigi susu tu pun dah goyang sedikit, jadi Hajar tak kena injection, diorang sapu 'gum numb'ing gel. Sekejap jer, siap dah. Sampai dalam pukul 1030 pagi, balik pukul 1115 pagi. Grateful that it was fast and smooth, alHamdulillaah! Klinik Kesihatan pun efficient yer :) mashaAllaah.

My girl didn't cry or afraid of the dentist, mashaAllaah. (I have to admit that ibu yang 'takut' pegi dentist kan LOL). She said it hurts a bit, and that's all.

After that, we went to UPM because ibu had to do some labworks. Hajar met some of ibu's colleagues at the tutor room and lab. Did some slides viewing, packed up, and bubye! We tapau'ed lunch from the cafe before we left.

Then, we went back to Bangi to get Hajar ready for school(stopped by at abah's office since we wouldnt make it by 2 pm if we went back home). Guess what, we forgot to bring Hajar's shoes! alHamdulillaah, the small shop at the ground floor just next to abah's office have school shoes for sale. We bought a new pair of white school shoes for Hajar. She was happy la kan memandangkan the other pair was already koyak2 sikit, and another one was 'sempit' silap beli saiz.

alHamdulillaah, harini Hajar ke sekolah walaupun pada awalnya ibu ada perancangan untuk membenarkan Hajar tidak ke sekolah sekiranya gusi yang masih baru kehilangan gigi itu sakit dan tidak selesa untuk Hajar. Memandangkan Hajar nampak OK saja dan dah boleh makan nasi, dan Hajar pun nak ke sekolah, ibu pun hantar dia ke sekolah.

Sungai Sungai

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we went to Hulu Langat last weekend, alHamdulillaah!

it was a blessing to sleep in a chalet(small room) by the river. We had to sleep like 'ikan sardin' for 2 nights, but worth it walHamdulillaah. The sounds of the river flowing nearby, the birds songs, etc made life more peaceful. Had the luxury of river view just outside the window.

Since the room was quite small and not enough space for syurgawan to do their activities, they got the chance to berlari-lari and explored the area with syurgawan from KMS. Abah ada program-kem kepimpinan sekolah rendah di situ. They were happy beyond words, mashaALlaah. However, Sarah was not feeling well. Growth spurt at the 9th month, hence the high fever(maybe?). We didnt give her any medicine since it is not recommended for babies at her age, and Sarah was an easy baby mashaAllah. We just made sure her temperature didnt go very high by keeping her cool at all the time(worn diapers only,no clothing nor blankies etc-we put coolfever on her forehead too, but Sarah took it off almost immediately after we put one on her forehead). alHamdulillaah, the fresh air and peaceful environment might have helped her to recover faster. came sunday, Sarah was healthy and cheerful again.

Btw, the water there was very cold that highly enthusiastic Adam had to give up only after a few minutes berendam dalam sungai LOL. Menggigil habis satu badan kesejukan. Kesian Adam, tak puas mandi sungai(on Sunday morning). The other day before it was raining in the afternoon, so no mandi sungai due to safety(arus deras dan air agak kotor).

Fever

baru perasan inner sole prewalker shoes ni in different shades of pink LOL

Just before we left,outside the surau after performing Zuhr together

tonight

Bismillaah

We went out just before Isyak time to dine out. As we drove by the surau, azan tengah berkumandang,so we decided to make a stop at surau Taman Tenaga(as we called it) to perform Isyak in Jemaah. MashaAllaah, there has always been lots of people attended congregational prayer at that particular surau. Locals and foreigners alike. The very meriah and happening!

Tonight, we saw lots of children and foods outside the surau. "They were going to have jamuan afterwards,kot' I told myself as I went to take wudhu. Initially Sarah was with abah and kakak, then a kind makcik hold her to give me the chance to join the congregational prayer,alHamdulillaah.may Allah reward her with goodness and bless her.

After solah, I quickly went outside to get Sarah as not to burden the kind makcik and I was worried that Sarah might cried. Alhamdulillah Sarah was happy and kakak n abang were enjoying kuih apam and teh tarik.woho.

We were told that the surau usually held makan2 every Friday night and the makcik kindly invited us to makan2 sekali. Initially, we were segan nak makan2 sebab tetiba muncul terus nak makan2. Was about to leave when suddenly it started to rain heavily.alhamdulillaah,barakah from Allaah. it's been days of hot weather and tonight the rain poured down.so, we had to wait until it was ok to walk to the car that was parked across the street. while waiting, we had some pulut kuning, apam, and teh tarik. bila Allah nak bagi rezeki, tak dirancang, kan dapat jua. jadinyer, kami makan di surau saje.elok jer habis makan,hujan pun berhenti.kami tak jadi makan luar dan terus pulang :)

Peaceful night

Bismillaah

Last night our housing area was out of electricity - black out! ibu was at the kitchen when our home went pitch black all of a sudden. Everyone stayed calm except for Maryam(she was scared and cried) , everybody was excited mashaAllah.

ibu slowly walked to the living room where all syurgawan were having fun earlier. luckily they were sitting next to each other, so kakak calmed adik-adik down. first thing, searched for the handphone. it was on the desk, so easily located alhamdulillah. turned the screen on to get some light. then, asked Adam to find the small torch light the got from the 'tora' box sometimes ago. he found it, turned the light on. alhamdulillah much brighter. we then found another small led torch light which worked better and brighter. By then, syurgawan were having fun playing with the torchlights and their shadows. oh, abah wasnt home by the way.

we called abah to let him know of the power shortage, and he immediately made his way home(arrived 20 minutes later since abah went to buy some candles, the candles in the nearby grocery store was sold out walHamdulillaah).

We sat together, kipas-mengipas antara sama lain since it was very warm. It hasnt rain for a few days already and it was extra hot during the day. Sarah was bermandi peluh and she got the special treatment. Ibu, abang, dan kakak-kakak bergilir-gilir tolong kipaskan syurgawan cilik kami tu.
When abah finally home, we decided to go out to take some fresh air. We didnt go far, just went to the masjid UKM and patah balik, and bought a bigger torchlight on the way back.

When we arrived at home, we gazed at the sky. I didnt remember when was the last time I gazed at the night sky, staring at the beautiful stars. We called syurgawan to appreciate the beauty of the sight and they were amazed. After that, we sat at the dining table, had some cold drinks and played with the shadows again. Adam was quite talented on making up shapes using his hands.
It was very peaceful without much light and noise. Certainly brought back the memories of growing up in the kampung where there was no electricity and we used to gaze at the stars at nights and enjoyed watching firefly on the trees in front of our little home.

MashaAllaah, last night was a peaceful night, without too many lights, noises, and screens which often distract us from the beautiful and peaceful sounds and sights of the nature.Yup, sometimes there was a beautiful blessing within a hardship.

kereta lembu

bismillaah


Terlupa pula nak tulis pasal kereta lembu di Melaka tempoh hari. Lokasinya bersebelahan Taman Buaya Melaka. Sekarang dah banyak gerai kat situ dan suasananya sangat 'meriah'.

Kami singgah situ sebab ternampak kereta lembu. Selalu pegi Melaka tak pernah naik kereta lembu yang dekat bandar tu sebab mahal kot. Kali ni, memang terkejut bila pakcik kereta lembu tu kata, "RM10 satu trip." ingatkan sorang 10 ringgit, rerupanya satu kereta lembu tu. 2 ekor lembu jantan gagah perkasa tarik satu kereta yang comel dihias. Boleh 6 orang dewasa muat sekali jalan. Haritu, semua pakat masuk dan syurgawan paling excited sebab tulah kali pertama dapat dekat dengan lembu. ehehehehe, dulu masa kecik-kecik ibu selalu naik kereta kerbau(takdalah cantik berhias, sebab tu lebih pada gerabak untuk buah kelapa). Selama ni syurgawan excited tengok lembu di tepi jalan sekitar Bangi(sekitar seksyen 3 dan Sungai Tangkas) dan tak pernah dekat. Haritu Adam siap ambil kesempatan tepuk2 lembu tu.

MashaAllaah seronok. Lembu-lembu tu pun sangat gemuk dan besar.

Syurgawan are in love...

Bismillaah


alHamdulillah, alHamdulillaah
here I am :)

This past weekend, we shared abah's busy schedule. Saturday was spent at USIM, Nilai. MashaAllaah, it was an amazing seminar:the materials, the crowd, and all! Syurgawan went straight to the kid's zone once we arrived at the venue(was half an hour late, though..uhuhuhuhu.will explain about this later in this entry insyaAllaah). The volunteers were very friendly and helpful. Proud to see young muslim/ah with excellent character and determination to serve the deen. Jazakumullaahu khaer.

Meanwhile, Sarah and Ibu sat in the main hall absorbing the materials presented by Ustaz Hasrizal and IM Asyraf. Sarah was very cooperative, happy, and cheerful. Sengih-sengih, main-main, membebel-bebel dan tido peacefully.zzzzzzz~

The day went by very fast, we arrived at the end of the first day at no time.hmm....rasa rugi jugak sebab tak dapat datang hari ke-2 sebab habis jer kat USIM, kami terus bertolak ke Penang..zooommm!
(sebab ni la lambat pagi tadi, kena berkemas dan packing sekali untuk balik kampung :) )

Slowly headed to Penang and arrived at midnight alHamdulillaah. Everybody was really tired by then.

Sunday-abah went to Kedah for a one-day program/ceramah, and the rest of us just duduk rumah sajer. Syurgawan took the opportunity to play-all-day with cousins. Adam with all the boys, and the girls with the girls. Sarah with ibu lorrr ehehehe. and yes,jumpa baby Dian yang kenit itu juga :)

Came Monday, we left early in the morning for Bangi. Life goes on :) Sekolah sekolah juge.

and this morning syurgawan eagerly asked, "boleh kita pergi program tu(seminar Muslim) lagi harini? seronoklah, nak pergi lagi!"

Bismillaah

Ibrah pada rantain mata dakwah.
Live from Seminar Muslim 2013


 MUSLIM TIMELINE
Nubuwwah>khilafah ala minhaji nubuwwah > maalikul aadun > mulukul jabariyah > khilafah ala minhaji nubuwwah

Percaya untuk melihat sesuatu sblm ia berlaku adalah superb!

Nuh:gelombang tajdid pertama(to redirect mankind back to the servitude of Allaah)

Riddah/murtad secara massa happened in Nuh's era.

The essence oh nuh's dakwah:ABDIkanlah dirimu kpd Allah
(Panggil manusia kembali sembah Allaah)-tujuan hidup!

2 circles:
-circle of influence
-circle of the influencing ppl

Al-mala:group yg berpengaruh dlm msykt


(Ma-la-a:menuang air ke dlm cawan)

Rasul adalah uswah utk org yg:
-hrpnya pd Allah
-blsn nya di akhirat
- byk m'ingati Allaah- hidup bertuhan

blessings from Bagan

bismillaah

alHamdulillaah, we've been blessed with visits from our beloved mothers and family members these past few weeks.

during CNY break, tokmak, tokpak, cik Mimie, pcik Shafix, pcik Adi, and Hakimi came to our place. It was great! We went travelling all the way to Mersing, JB, and Malacca. Eventhough the weather was gloomy and the traffic on the highway was a bit heavy, we had a fun trip anyway.

We left Bangi early in the morning and headed to Mersing, not realising that Mersing is a town far far away! ohohohoho. Felt like traveling to the end of the world Johore! The road after Senai Utara's exit was kecil dan berlubang dan beralun walHamdulillaah. Saw a few accidents along the way, might be due to slippery road as it was raining. Ladang kelapa sawit saujana mata memandang. We only reached our destination: Felda residence Mersing around 3pm. Was tired, but the pantai dan kolam jadi pengubat penat. quite a nice place, but we decided not to stay there(rooms were fully booked pun :P, ada 2 different big families: 1 chinese, 1 malay = 1 Malaysia lorr, held their family day there). Lepas abah check kemudahan kat sana mana yang sesuai untuk program akan datang, solat rehat dan minum sekejap, kami terus bertolak ke JB.

tbc :)

sampai JB, semua dah letih, hotel pulak kebanyakan fully sold out. Tak dapat carik yang ada swimming pool heh :P. Last resort carik yang dekat JB Sentral, Aman Sari namanya. alHamdulillaah kira tahap bajet hotel kot ni, biarpun bilik agak kecil, tapi bersih dan berkonsepkan moden. Dan lah untuk tidur merehatkan badan yang hampir seharian duduk dalam kereta. (btw, the day before we went jalan-jalan to Shah Alam and KL. seharian suntuk jugak walHamdulillaah. Stopped at Anjassari Cafe at TTDI Jaya and Masjid Shah Alam, Masjid Negara and Jalan TAR)

Malam tu tak sempat pun sight seeing around JB centre sebab semua dah letih. Sempat pi beli dinner jer. Lepas tu semua lena sampai subuh.

ctd

bismillaah


ok, after syurgawan splashed sploshed sepuas hati sampai kesejukan, barulah kami naik ke bilik. The water was a bit cold since it was still quite early in the a.m and the sun was slowly showing herself. Lil Sarah just celup-celup tangan. Sampai bilik, depa sambung main air dalam bilik air.

We checked out at 1pm, and waited for abah's friend in the lobby. He arrived much later, at around 2pm..uhuhuh.Kami sempat pi surau dan solat dulu. After that, we waited for another 2 hours-almost-abah meeting dengan kawan tu...dan akhirnya bertolak dari JB ke Kulai dalam pukul 4pm. Masuk kete jer, semua lentok.Letih walHamdulillaah.

alHamdulillaah, we arrived at Amira's house, greeted warmly by the family. Very friendly and nice people, mashaAllaah. We felt very welcomed and enjoyed the 'late' lunch very much. jazakumullaahu khair. Syurgawan sure enjoyed makcik's hospitality with all the foods, kuih, and jajan! They ran around the spacious house like they own the place! We were there until 7-ish before we headed back to Bangi. We made a quick stop at JPO, just to sight seeing - mengenang memori di US uhuhuhu :P. No shopping done lorrr as things are still pricey at the 'outlet.'

Then, we slowly moved up South. Traffic was clear, but we stopped for solat, dinner, etc. Lupa bila sampai rumah, but it was late already and maybe past midnight when we finally reached Bangi, alHamdulillaah.

Blessings from Tanjung

bismillaah

AlHamdulillaah


Have you been following our posts? If so, jazakAllaahu khair, may you benefit from whatever good  there is in here, and may Allaah forgives us for whatever shortcomings there might be. You might have noticed that we don't update our blog daily, we are very sorry for that :( please make du'a that we will be able to keep posting regularly.

alHamdulillaah, last weekend we went to Johor Bharu and spent 2D1N there. It was a wonderful trip. We started on Sunday, went to Paroi because abah gave a talk at Pusat Islam there. It was for couple of hours and syurgawan had good time playing both inside the hall(it was a 1 and a half level, we were upstairs so not to disturb others ehehehe, only Adam stayed in the main hall) and outside. They watched birds(especially doves) and played up and down the wide, beautiful staircases. The weather was nice, so was the place. We left around 3 pm and headed straight to JB. Made a few stops at the R&Rs and reached JB around 8pm.

We decided to stay at the JB Grand Bluewave hotel. alHamdulillaah, the hotel was nice. The superior studio room was spacious and beautiful. It has a small kitchen complete with microwave, stove, dining table, etc. The room was facing the tambak Johor too! Very puas hati lorrr with a very reasonable walk in rate, alHamdulillaah. The next morning, syurgawan mandi manda sepuas-puasnya at the pool located on the 7th floor. The pool was big and beautiful! Early in the morning and there was nobody else in the pool except us! Heaven mashaAllaah!

tbc insyaAllaah ;)

p/s: Blessings from Tanjung refers to Opah, Mak Ina, and the handsome baby Uwais' visit to our house this week. Mak Ina attended a training at UPM and they stayed with us. We enjoyed their visits and happy to meet opah, mak Ina, and baby Uwais.

new routine

bismillaah


rutin baru tahun baru 2013 ni ialah basuh kasut! dah berbelas tahun tinggalkan aktiviti yang satu ni - kali terakhir adalah semasa darjah 6. Lepas tu, masuk sekolah asrama dan guna kasut hitam (orang tak basuh kot kasut hitam? - boleh guna yang leather/bukan kain).

Tahun ni, Hajar dah masuk darjah 1. Kenalah guna kasut sekolah warna putih, and yes, kanak-kanak memang lasak dan tak kisah kasut tu bertukar warna jadi kaler kelabu. Zaman ibu dulu, kasut penuh kotoran tanah liat - sekolah kampung kan, mana ada berturap/simen jalan-jalan sekitar sekolah. Zaman sekarang, sikit jer pijak tanah, lain semua lantai simen. Jadi, kerja memberus kasut sekolah tu takdelah susah mana walHamdulillaah. Lepas berus, basuh dan bilas, kita 'kapur' kasut! part yang seronok kan.ehehehe.

Sarah pula dah advanced berdiri dan berpaut. sekarang dah boleh gerak setapak dua sambil berpaut di kerusi, meja, basikal(roda tiga) etc. Gigih mashaAllaah. Harini, discovered gigi sulung dia kat gusi bawah. ehehehe baru pecah gusi tu, gigi tak nampak lagi.kena sentuh dengan jari. Sekarang pulak Sarah tengah cirit-birit. alHamdulillaah tak teruk, tapi najis cair jer sepanjang minggu. Dalam sehari, dalam 4-5 lampin kotor. so far, Sarah tetap berselera minum susu, makan, dan aktif.

Maryam pulak tengah dalam membina identiti nya..cecece :) banyaknya perkara dia nak test to the limit. Protes itu ini, taknak itu ini, etc. Perlu penuh psikologi dalam berkomunikasi dengan anak seorang ni.

Adam pulak, makin 'matang.' baca iqra' lancar jer sekarang ni, alHamdulillaah.

Menuntut ilmu...

bismillaah


alHamdulillaah, anak-anak sudah ke taska, tadika, dan sekolah seperti biasa. Awal-awal tu memang rasa berat dan kekok terutamanya nak berpisah dengan si kecil Sarah, dan membiasakan diri dengan jadual baru kakak Hajar.

Hajar dah masuk darjah satu! Tapi, sekolah sesi petang. Jadi, ibu dan abah kena bergilir-gilir hantar dan jemput. AlHamdulillaah, setakat ni tiada masalah dan Hajar pun seronok berada di dalam suasana baru yang sangat berbeza berbanding tahun lepas. Hajar dapat duduk sekelas dengan seorang teman rapat dari Tadika Umi Alam Ceria, takdelah Hajar sunyi dan kekok sangat di dalam kelas baru. Hajar masih lagi malu-malu dan segan untuk berkenalan dengan rakan-rakan lain. InsyaAllah mungkin beberapa minggu lagi .

Adam dan Maryam seronok dapat naik 'kelas'. Adam dah jadi senior di tadika dan Maryam dah dapat kelas secara rasmi :) cumanya, mereka rasa sedikit 'kehilangan' bila kakak Hajar sudah tidak bersama-sama pergi ke tadika.

Sarah pula sekarang dah mengerti erti perpisahan. Biasanya akan menangis bila ditinggalkan di taska dan ibupun rasa sayu :( apakan daya, ini jalan yang telah dipilih walHamdulillaah. Harini, Sarah selesema (bermula dari semalam lagi). Ibu rasa sebab Sarah banyak sangat menangis masa di taska...uhuk..uhuk...

S.K stands for Sekolah Kebangsaan

bismillaah


Hajar: Hajar nampak, cikgu tadi macam letih sangat. Macam tak larat nak ajar kitorang. Cikgu tu ingat, kami budak-budak ni tak letih ker?

Adam: Haah, baik cikgu tu duduk rumah jer jaga anak.

Woopps! minta maaflah pada para guru di luar sana. Tapi ni adalah daripada perbualan kanak-kanak 5 dan 6 tahun (soon to be 7 insyaAllah). Ibu tumpang dengar dari jauh saja dan tak kata apa-apa.

wajar atau tidak wajar?

tadi pun, para ibu bapa di'halau' pergi dengan nada sindiran -"kalau macam ni, sampai dua minggu akan datang pun nak temankan anak!"

wuhuhuhu...kami faham, ibu bapa mungkin menganggu para guru menjalankan tugas. Tapi, bukankah ada bahasa yang lebih profesional dan molek untuk digunakan? sesi sekolah baru beberapa minit bermula, dua orang guru yang kelihatan bermuka sangat garang dan masam - di hadapan para ibu bapa dan anak-anak Darjah 1! astaghfirullaah al-a'zim.

dilema~